I woke up at 0530 Mississippi hour today. I made my day, started my breakfast, and showered and shaved. When I looked in the mirror, I thought to myself how I want to be the person who I’d want to be with forever.
In many ways, the recent days have found me questioning my own reliability to be the same person. While understanding that we all face ups and downs, that life is never static, its hard to accept how certain habits just don’t click. But the realization I had was that no one, nobody, will come to save me.
A sink filled with dirty dishes, a floor that hasn’t been swept, even my bathroom mirror – are all reflections that I need to take better care of myself and cultivate a more thoughtfully kept environment. I don’t want to be the person who can’t take care of himself, and what’s my excuse? That I didn’t have time. That these things were too hard to do? That I couldn’t find the motivation. Well, wake up! I say to myself. Because you can’t just sleep walk through life.
A big thing for me is being intentional about the life I want to create. I want to live without a single dollar of debt. But this month I found myself owing $6,000. It didn’t happen overnight. It was the result of many days of overspending compounding to this mountain of stress. I found myself deviating from my principles, violating budgets, tearing through boundaries.
But it’s a beautiful monday morning because I have the chance to reflect on this. I can make a difference today. I can still spend money, a lot of it, giving to others. Which is what I love to do. I’m excited for the day, for what I will learn, accomplish, and how I will feel towards the end of it.
A beautiful monday morning, here we go.