Every now and then a feeling of fear resurfaces when I find myself facing a seemingly insurmountable task. My fear manifests itself by limiting my efforts in preparation. Instead of preparing myself and equipping myself with the best knowledge, I let time expire and then show up as the less presentable version of myself.
With the PMP exam, this is almost true. Although I have spent a respectable amount of time preparing for this exam, I have spent an equal amount of time avoiding it and dreading the preparation aspect. This slip-up in preparation work applies in many other areas of my life. I am not really consistent with practice, and yet I can be so good at so many things.
The joy for me comes in doing, not in preparing to do, and this itself is the challenge I face. Because I can probably enjoy doing more if I adequately prepare myself.
I cannot be too hard on myself, I can only observe where I am in this moment and take steps to be better in the next moments. My first encounter with the PMP Exam will either result in a qualification, or in the revelation that I have still more to go, more to study, and with either outcome, more to learn.
Perhaps that is the reminder I need, that regardless of the outcome I can be thankful that I learned so much in the limited amount of time I have spent studying. I completed over 100 lessons in PMI Study Hall. I have answered 100s of questions in practice exams and quizzes, and while I can be doing a lot better, I could also be doing a lot worse.
This week, I want to be intentional about drinking water and stretching only a bit more than usual. My body is stiffening up and sore much more frequently. The last month of the year will prove to be an exciting time to explore new things. More to come.
Becoming A Happy Person 